There’s something interesting about the finish line. It’s when we’re most likely to give up. For 30 days, I have blogged everyday, but these last two days, I have almost not. It’s interesting because before I connected the dots, the reasons for giving up sounded sound. “I’ve had it up to here with the pain and suffering of black people and it doesn’t feel like the right time.” True, but like I said in my last post- the world keeps on turning and I had been turning in other areas- I had tweeted, I had instagrammed, I had done other things- why not keep up my commitment?
I always have 3 or 4 written posts at any time, so if I have no ideas or desire to write, I have something easy to reach for. Therefore, it wasn’t a question of not being able to write. When the same feeling hit my intermittent fasting goal, I connected the dots- the fear of the finish line!
Have you ever wondered why this is? Close to the end of a journey, feeling an overwhelming urge to give up? Is there a self-destructive part of you that wants to confirm the fear that you couldn’t achieve your goal? Are you scared of what comes next after you complete it?
This isn’t one of those times where I have the answers. I honestly have no idea why it happens. I’m happy and feel lucky that I’m at a point where I’m self-aware enough to realise it and to feel the fear and do it anyway! With ONE more day to the end of the goal, I’m not going to fall off now.
Hopefully, I can end this amazing challenge with something that has challenged me and I’ve been scared to share! Also, are you guys missing 1000 word posts? I kind of am and no matter what the last post is, it’s going to be a long one, so come prepared!
Here’s to overcoming the fear of finishing!